A little one.

You will understand the picture of the doll after ya read. I want to write about a little once. Beatrice Sparks. She was a very dear friend of mine. She passed away Friday evening around 8. She was such a sweetheart but also such a little stinker. I loved it though. Even when she was stubborn. A few other things I love about Bea was how she cared about her baby dolls. Bea use to walk and when she lost the strength in her legs to not walk on her own she would still try. Well we would give her a doll to hold. She treated that doll just like it was a real baby. I made Bea promise a few things before. One being that she would take care of my babies before they came to me. I know she is. Another fav is when Bea would put her nose up to mine and move it to give Eskimo kisses. That tiny tiny little face. :) Bea weighted about 85 pounds or so. She was just so little. Her little giggle and babble. She didn't have a lot of words that she could say but when she would have something to say she would go on forever and then just giggle and smile. So freakin adorable! I loved when she would grab my hands and put them on her face because they were warm. I want to go to her funeral because I can't wait to learn more about who Bea was before I met her. I would love to fit Bea into a name when I have a baby. Like a middle name. Bea just made a really big impact on me and I would love to honor her in some way. Cheesy that sounds. But sorry. I didn't realize that this job and meeting someone like Bea would do so much for me. Hmmm I can't think of what else to say about Bea right now or what else to share about other things. I do have things to write about but I'll save it for another post.

Be good cowboy

My Grandpa Woody passed away this last week and a picture like this always hung up in his kitchen. I really want to find one that looks like the one they had but so far no good. Gpa Woody was married to Gma Mary. Who I am actually named after. She was such a sweetheart and so was he. Today at his service they talked about how outspoken he was but he was so full of service. I want to do more service and be more charitable.

His service was really nice. They had a musical number that I want to try and find the song and really listen to it because the two girls didn't sing loud enough for me to hear. I think the song is called "love me." it was nice for people to share some stories about him and remember the little sweet things about him. It also brought back some little memories of Mary. Kobby got asked to be a pall bearer. My dad loved him doing that. He said he was great to do it and also represented out family. I'm happy that Kob got that opportunity to do it. I really wish Kob had the opportunity to meet my Grandpas. I know they would have just loved him! I know my Grandmas do. My Grandma Alger talks about him all the time to my dad. I know they both love him so so much. But so does my whole family. They tell me all the time. And I know it, I know they do. It's back again to luck but also love. Still perfectly happy.

luck

How did I ever get so lucky? Kob and I always get in little fights. (although they aren't really fights at all) about who is more lucky. Honestly it's me. I feel like I am on top of the world being with him. I know I write about him a lot but it's because I love him a lot and think about him a lot. My decisions are or decisions. We make them together. His opinion means everything to me! I want to be the best I can for him and everyday I strive to be for him. I want us to have the perfect life together and so far we do. We both are so incredibly happy and look forward to more amazing and incredible experiences and adventures together.

His younger brother David graduated high school yesterday and I got to be there for it and say in the middle of them all. Right between Kob and his mom. They are just wonderful people! That's to say the least though. You can see that Kob gets some of his big heart from his mom. She is such a thoughtful and caring person. I already feel like such a part of their family because of the way they have welcomed me and treat me. I can't believe how comfortable I am around them.

Especially with how little time I've known them. Although it feels like I've know Kob and his family forever. Kob and I talk about it all the time. I've always had such walls up when I've met people. Especially guys. But for some reason after I prayed for needing someone and then met him a short time later I couldn't believe how easy it was for me to let him get to know me. There weren't any walls for him to come through. I'm thankful everyday for him!

I found a few quotes one of them to me is something that I feel fits this.

"it's so amazing how someone comes into your life and you expect nothing out of it but suddenly they are standing right there infront of you and they are everything you need."

Every time I read this I think of Kob. I wasn't expecting my prayer to be answers do quickly but also to be answered with him. I didn't expect anything when I met him and now I still cant believe that he is everything I could ever need and want. When I prayed and thought about who this person boy or girl was going to be I never thought I'd be this lucky. He is so much more than I could have ever imagined.

Well that's it for now. But I'm so perfectly happy! So grateful for my boo and my booger! How'd I ever get so lucky.

Sweep.

this baby is so peacefully sleeping that i wish i looked this cute and peaceful when i sleep. so tonight more than once my amazing boo (kob) and i were talking about how our sleeping schedules are off. he works graveyard so when he is hitting the sheets i am usually out of them. then i nap and sleep during the day and sometimes when he is at work. i like to talk to him while he is at work when i'm suppose to be sleeping. we hope to be on the same schedule soon. kob is trying to get a day job. i think it would be great for him. especially because he would be working with people. i couldn't work by myself, so i give him props for doing so. he is truly amazing. not just because he works graveyards and doesn't work with people but just because of who he is. i love him and i love everything about him. his widdle giggle. his big brown eyes. they say so much to me. just looking at them makes me feel safe. by far one of my favorite things about him is his big beautiful heart! it says so much about him. when i first met him i could tell his heart wasn't a normal one. not that his is or isn't normal. well its his and its a beautiful one. i could say so much about his heart and him. he is also pretty dapper. more on kob later because heck i love writing about him. :D

so whats going on since the last time i updated. i'm trying to pick up more shifts at work and i'm also looking for a new job. i've applied for some nanny positions so we will see how that goes. i need to be making more money. (wow that makes me feel greedy) but i need to be saving more money. for medical bills, and mostly life.   but i know things will work out and be okay. kob always makes me feel that it will be. i know that it will be because of him. i've also decided to sell my 4runner for a smaller car. i've mainly been looking at jettas. i would get double the miles per gallon for gas and insurance will also be lower. i'm excited to have a new car and i think jettas are really cute. kob has been helping me out a lot with it and i'm so happy he is willing to help me. he is so good to me. he spoils me so much. he does! i'm so grateful for him. not because he spoils me but because of who he is and how he treats me.

well thats all i can really think of right now but i'm thinking that i will be back on here later tonight. who knows.

being caught up.

i know i need to be better on writing a post about once or twice a week. i would love to do it everyday but to be honest about a couple of things. first, it doesn't even cross my mind. second, i don't think i would have enough to say. third, i just wanted an odd number. :) well since i wrote to you last. i got to experience one of my really close friends having a baby. it was an incredible feeling to be there as that baby took her first cry and her first breath. that baby was just born. wow. some of me feels like it still isn't real. my friend gave her baby up. she has so much strength because i know that is something i would never have the courage to do. i look up to her in that. i'm happy for her. i see that she is happy in her decision too and that is really important for me. i didn't want her to regret her decision or suddenly change her mind. i know it shouldn't matter to me or not what she did but honestly i want her to be happy and content with it because i only want the best for her. she deserves it. i know she has had a hard life but making this choice will only expand her opportunities of what she will be able to do. (side note: i hope all of this is coming across the way i am meaning for it too.)

among other things... i am still so extremely happy. i can't imagine where i would be without Jake(Kob) in my life. He brings so much joy and incredibly awesome-ness and tons of other things into my life. Just thinking of his name or seeing something that reminds me of him puts a smile on my face. i am so happy and i am loving every minute of it. every second of it.

easter was this past weekend and we got to spend it with his family. i loved every minute of it. not a minute went by that i wasn't enjoying what was going on. i met his cousins, aunts, uncles, poppop(grandpa) and his grandmom. They are all such wonderful people and he has such a wonderful family. you can tell how much they all love each other. i knew it from moment i walked in the door. well i knew that there was a lot of love just from the way that jake is and the way that his mom and his family is. they are just so incredible and i feel so blessed to be apart of it. i can't wait to get to know them better.

hmmm... not sure what else to write so that is it for now because i know i could go on forever about jake and his wonderful family and all the love they have to give.

playing catch up.

so this picture isn't exactly the type of ketchup i was talking about but heck i like it so i wanted to put it. go ahead and judge. :) we algers got a new addition to our family back in november and honestly we couldn't be more happy and excited about it. his name is buddy james alger. he is now about 4 months old so yes some time has passed but man oh man is he adorable. he was born on the 21st of november at about 3:33pm and weighted just about 8 pounds and was 21 inches long. tons of dark hair.

yes he is the cutest baby alive. well besides mine. no offense to them i just know that mine are going to be freakin adorable! but baby buddy is so cute. he laughs and smiles all the time. he is just such a good baby. having a new addition to our family and having it be a baby i couldn't really be more excited. but it also gets me more excited for me that someday i will have some little bugs of my own. :)

school. well i haven't decided what or if i am going to go to school this fall. if i do i'm thinking i will be attending slcc. they can help me get done with my nursing sooner and easier. i've also thought a lot about being an ultra sound tech. you know look up the babies. :) i would love this because if you know anything about me i love babies. so i've really thought about going to do that. its also pretty quick to get done and i'm ready to be done with school and get moving on more into my career life. its going to be so so hard to leave courtyard when that time comes but as of now i am staying that and loving every minute it. i know i wine about going in at 6am but once i get there things are great. i love being in the service of people and i wish i could do more. i know i could do more but i really need to go out there and find it.

its not you. its me.

yes. i have been decent for some time. don't worry its nothing you did. its not you its me. i thought about starting a new blog. something that more people could read if i so desired. a lot has changed in my life starting in the new year. it wasn't some new year resolution or anything. its something of a life theme. okay so that sounds cheesy but something i've decided that i always want in my life. simplicity. with this really being applied in my life i've become a lot happier. well its one of the few reasons. simplicity just can't get all the credit for an amazing new year.

two days before the new year started i met an amazing man. his name is jake but goes by kob. yes yes that is him in that picture of there ---^ (yes that is an arrow pointing up) a little bit about him. first off he is incredible, respectful, honest, non-judgmental, humble, trustworthy, loving, big heart, handsome, funny and has an amazing spirit about himself. jake has so so many great qualities. these are just to name a few. well a little bit about him. his favorite color is blue. he has a awesome family that you can tell he loves and they love him. its totally unconditional. he has so more things than this. jake and i have such an awesome time every time we are together. we made a list when we were first dating and getting to know each other and we add to it frequently. we are going to do everything on that list and are so excited to do it. one of our pros is that we are great at communicating with each other. but yes we have a heck of a time with each other and date the heck out of each other. haha. we love it. i love the way he makes me feel. i thought i've felt like this before but honestly i've never been this happy and really in love before now. i thought that i had. but the way jake makes me feel i really can't describe. he makes me want to be better, he makes me so incredibly happy. he helps make me, me. i've had my wall up for sometime now but when i met him for some reason it didn't exists. i have had no fear going into him. i feel like he knows me for who i am. honestly i can say i don't know who has. i feel like we are both that way. neither of us have walls up and we can really show who we are and not care what the other one thinks. especially when we do our dance moves. haha. :D

i'm going to share more later but heck i'm not going to share everything because its my business and not yours. so this is it for now. i'll update you with more things later. peace.

How Come?

how come? its a never really a good thing when someone asks 'how come?' but its true, how come? How come people you care and love about make a really dumb choice. from my point of view. but from his its what his heart and head are saying. is it bad that i hope it goes the opposite way that he desires it to go. its just way to hard to watch him go through something like he has before. how come he has to do it? so he can learn something? i want him to be so happy and i want the best for him. i really do. despite of how things come across. i care. i really do care. i love you man and you are in my prayers. take care.

I disappeared...

So technically I didn't disappear, technically I forgot my e:mail address for my blog so I couldn't log in. I don't know why i have a different e:mail address for this blog than i do for my regular e:mail. not sure what i was thinking at the time. well i probably wasn't. so lets play catch up. my sister told me i had to update my blog because it hasn't been updated since february.

School: We are almost done with this Semester of school. I got to finally take my Ballet Tech class. I'm not sure if I can take number 2 next semester because I need to get more of my nursing classes under way so that i can be done with my P.A. a lot sooner. i love ballet and i think for the most part it keeps me sane. a little bit more sane okay. i registered for next semester and i'm in human sexuality, body images, medical terminology, intro to anatomy and physiology. yikes right?

Work: Last time I caught you up about work I was a Hostess at Courtyard well that changed a long time ago. I'm now a CNA. I love it, especially where I am. I work in the Alzheimers Unit and all I have to say is those people are so easy to love and care for. Its an amazing thing! I'm also exploring options at the hospital lately. I've filled out some applications for the emergency room and got some interviews. i also recently got one for the cardiac wing. it will just be stressful because its a 6pm-6am. that and being a full-time student. a lot to thinking about but right now I'm very happy with being at courtyard especially working the residents i do and then some of my co-workers.

Church: well i did a brave thing last week. i finally moved back to provo. i'm not in my cedar hills ward anymore. I've been up there for just about 2 years. which i can't believe but wow i'm back. i'm very unsure how i feel about it so we will see. its not that i don't mind being back in provo but not sure how i like being back in this ward... nothing against those people. to be honest with you i thought the cedar hills ward would be my last ward.

i know i will get asked this question so why not answer it. boys... they are around me and i'm enjoying the ones that are more dominant in my life. oh guess what? i'm going to be an aunt soon! baby peanut is just around the corner and i am so excited! my brother buddy jokes that we won't ever get to see the baby i know where they live i can just show up. ha ha. i really won't do that because they live in west jordan but still i'm going to see my nephew. i joined a gym and i love going! my old good friend Laura and me go at least twice a week and its a great time.

overall. life is good. i can't complain to much. i shouldn't really be able to complain. i'm pretty healthy (for once in my life) i have a great job and i'm furthering my education which is very important. i'm starting to get back into somethings that i've wanted to have back into my life. probably my only real complaint right now is that jay and me aren't in the same state. i miss that man! a lot!

this is all for me for tonight. peaces and much love.

ten.

i hope you aren't getting bored with what i am doing. day ten is a picture of the person who i do the most ridiculous things with. thats a toughie but i don't really do ridiculous things.

jeff and i did some pretty crazy stuff but i don't want you to get sick of him so...

jay and me. he is my bestie!!! we have been through a lot together. :) we have done some pretty crazy stuff. vegas trips, cali trips. tying a balloon to my hair so i wouldn't get lost at a dance. yep yep, we have done some awesome stuff.

day nine.

picture of someone who has gotten me through the most.

to me this is a hard question to answer. is it through the most recently? then it would be adds or adam. but if you are talking for a while and who is my good number one, i don't know how to really do this but then there is jeff. amazing one. then you have jay who has been my rock through all of these boys below. you got alex, who has also been there for me. finally chris. he was probably there for me the most but hasn't been there recently. we've kind of gone our seperate ways a couple of months after his mission. thats off track but yeah these guys have each been there for me all in a different way. love 'em.

day 6, 7 and 8.

day six: picture of a person you would want to trade places for a day.

i can't think of someone i would like to trade places with for a day. but i would maybe like to be a bug for a day so i could hear certain things. well maybe not a bug but be like a dot on president monsons tie or something.

day seven: picture of most treasured item.

Its not the picture that I treasure well sort of but its more of the people in the picture that I treasure and this is us being us. i love it.

day eight: picture that makes me laugh.

This picture for sure makes me laugh! We are picking up Austin from bootcamp and yep one of my favorite features on a guy... yep his butt! ha ha. love this picture!!! side note for future days: jeff will probably be in a lot of pictures. don't say i didn't warn you.

day 5.

day 5: a picture of your favorite memory. i love this picture and there are so many great memories behind it. not just the picture but that guy. yep jeff! he surprised me one day with horseback riding. awesome. this also happened to be the day of the first time we told each other that we loved each other!!! :D Hello! totally a awesome and worth-wild memory! hee hee. i could go on pretty much forever about this but i will spare you. hee hee.

the days.

So I was told I should do this 30 days of pictures. Well... I am behind by four days if you didn't know. So, I have some catching up to do. Also I have been missing here but totally in action else where.

Day 01 - A picture of yourself with fifteen facts.

1. I have WAY to many Shoes! But hey I have to have a guilty pleasure. 2. Favorite color is Red. 3. I love to laugh. 4. I really don't have as much hair as people think. Extensions people. My hair is really short. 5. Love my 4Runner. 6. I would love to be a professional ballerina but with my knee injury it won't ever happen. 7. i don't care what people say i am getting into the nursing school i want. 8. i'm not a mind reader. 9. my family is pretty awesome. 10. i have only had one job where i haven't had a 'dress code'. 11. first word was chocolate. 12. my sister is da bomb. 13. i have so many notebooks that i don't know what to do with them. 14. my mind is always thinking. 15. i love me. hee hee. ***Side Note: I really didn't know what to share.***

Day 02 - A picture of you and the person you have been close with for awhile.

This is my best friend Jeff. i love him to death. we use to date and now we are just besties. someday things will be even better for us and i sincerly can't wait for it.

Day 03 - A picture of the cast from your favorite show.

So this isn't the cast from my favorite show but he is one of my favorite actors. He is so talented well and i will be honest here he is GORGOUS!!! H yeah!

Day 04 - A picture of your night.

So this isn't really a picture of my night, but it has been a picture of one of my nights when Adam and I stayed up all night so we could go to the BYU lost and found sale. Awesome! We are going again next year. Already excited. But this was a fun night. Adam gets so funny when it gets past lets say 10pm. Ha ha. I love it.

"I love stepping in the autumn leaves, it reminds me of Potato chips!"

The title of this blog is from Garfield the Cat and I got the quote from Jeff. I really liked it, mostly because I love fall. Its probably my favorite season. Crunching on the leaves is so much fun. Anyways that is not the purpose of this post. I haven't blogged in quite sometime and then Adam asked me if I make fun of him in my blog. I tol dhim I would have to write in it to make fun of him. Adam is amazing! Hee hee. Well lots of things have changed since I wrote last. So I will just go from there.
School is going great. Adam and I have every class except one together. So to say the least we spend a lot of time together. :) Its fun at times, I just hope we don't get sick of each other. Okay honestly I hope he doesn't get sick of me. But I am enjoying most of my classes for the most part. I have to wait till next semester to take my english which is a bummer because I was enjoying have a class with Jeff.
Church, I got another calling. So along with being on the Activities Committee I am now a Relief Society Teacher. I have only taught once so far but I think I will get more comfortable as time goes on. I think its going to be great! I'm excited for these new experiences that are heading my way.
Boys... Well, thats an interesting topic and I don't have much to share in the department because I don't want to jinix it or anything like that. So knock on wood. :) Things are good!
Work: Have I shared with you that I got a new job? Well I got it back in August. I am at Courtyard at Jamestown. Its an assisting living center and I absolutely love it there, the residents are so so cute! I love a lot of them! Some of my favorites (shhh we aren't suppose to have them but of course you do) Grant, Edna, Sarah, Dr. Tanner, Joe, Max, Lloyd, Thema, Eda, Florance, Ruth, Frances, Evelyn, Elanie, Bob, Bob, George and Lamar (he recently passed away, but he is still great!) But wow, I love them all, they are all so so great! I'm excited for my job and I am really loving it.
Well I am tired, I have some more experiences to share but I will do that maybe tomorrow. I have a day off then. Loves.

The more things change the more they stay the same.

A lot has certainly happened since the last time I wrote and I don't know really what encouraged me to write this post but a lot has changed. Things change so quickly sometimes you don't even recongize that they have other things you have to notice because you have to get your footing back. For me that has been it for me, trying to get my footing back.

I start school next week and I am excited, I got into almost every class that I wanted too. (Still on the waitlist for 2) I don't get to take my dance classes because if you didn't know I have a grade 3 MCL tear and a slight tear of my ACL. I don't know if I need surgery until the 24th. Hopefully its a no because I don't have the time to do so. I got a new job, its over at Jamestown. Its an Assisting Living Center, I'm just a Hostess right now but soon I will be a C.N.A. I am so so excited and its one of the hardest places in Utah to get a C.N.A job so this can certainly be a great opportinity! :) The boy situation... Its complicated and not to open for discussion. But its certainly moving along and I'm happy with the way they are moving forward. Thats giving you details without you being to involved because Hey, I don't want you to be. Afterall its my life and my business.

Hmmm... Lets see, I don't really know what else to tell you so right now thats it. Oh yeah Russell comes home in 5 DAYS!!! Woot woot! So exciting!

Whats going on...with me. You can see.

This post, picture and also my thoughts are all sort of random so if you don't like it you don't have to continue to read. I seriously don't mind. Now moving on... There are lots of new adventures that are happening with me lately so I figured I would fill you on what those things are.
School: I take my Nursing Final tomorrow! UGH! Wish me luck, I am incredibly nervous but at the sametime I am extremely excited that I have made it this far. I didn't really think I would make it this far. I under estimate myself sometimes. Yeah I know not a good thing but its for things like that when I am like that. Mostly with school. I won't be going to school over the summer but I will be going back in the fall and doing more dance... I hope. Its something that I have extremely missed and can't wait to get back into. I got some new pointe shoes for Christmas and haven't done much dancing in them.
Work: I have had a couple of interviews some with 7Peaks and they told me that I would be hearing from them soon so hopefully I do. I also start sometime soon working at this other place called the BeadFairy. I am excited to work there, its a totally creative brain required and I want that atmosphere. Should be good. But I am still applying for jobs at the Hospital where I can put my recent schooling to work. Another thing to wish me luck with.
Life: What can I say about life? All around life... Yes I am dating someone. I have a boyfriend. His name is Jeff and is honestly and truly such an amazing guy. Do some boys like this actually exsits besides whats in movies? They must because I have one. I don't want to do all this love mushy talk so I can tell you other things... Like what I'm not sure.

Its about time...

It's about dang time for me. I am finally back at school! I started last Monday on the fourth and I am loving every minute of it. 8 hours of pure... for the time being. It could change in a month or so. But for right now I am enjoying being back in the classroom, the homework, the whole thing. I also have done something new. I put in my 2-weeks noticed in Valet and trying to relocate to a different position in the Hospital until I am done with this semester. My old department was making it hard schdule wise to do school and work. So I did the exact opposite that they wanted me to do and quit so I could go to school. Well I am a busy body, I like to work and go to school. Only one semester did I only do school and went nuts when I was all done with homework. So I will be working in the O.R. (I hope) for about 5 months until I am done with this Semester and then will be moving up to Labor and Delivery and work full time with those precious little babies! But I am so excited for the upcoming experiences at school and with a new job!

Books.

I soon get to go and buy all my new textbooks for my classes. I am so extremely excited to be back at school. Some of my friends find it weird that I am so excited but I love school. Learning new things, meeting new people. Experiences. I'm excited. I took some tests at the end of last week and I was nervous about the Math one especially. (Haven't taken Math since I was a Sophomore in High School) Well I had little time to take it and me with my stubborness with some things I did't want to study. I was unsure of what to study anyways. Well I must have been being watched over... I got a 98% on my Math and 100% on my English! I was so happy and grateful that I actually did so well. Dang it, I did great! As cheesy as this sounds I was so proud of myself for how good I did.

Something I am also excited for is. My scrubs! I haven't decided exactly what colors I want but I for sure want a Red pair. I think even a Purple. Then since I already work at the Hospital they are excited for me to finish this next Semester so I can move into a higher department. I can't wait! January 4th is coming fast and still with as excited as I am, I don't want the Holidays and it to come by very fast. I'm very much for slower pace things.

A Ghost says Boo!

They aren't pictures of me for Halloween but 2 little kids very very dear to my heart! They live in my second home in Nebraska! They have gotten so big!

I can't believe my little Addy is now 5 and a Unicorn!

Yes, Alex is 8 and a very good Military Dude! So cute even playing a tough guy.