A little one.

You will understand the picture of the doll after ya read. I want to write about a little once. Beatrice Sparks. She was a very dear friend of mine. She passed away Friday evening around 8. She was such a sweetheart but also such a little stinker. I loved it though. Even when she was stubborn. A few other things I love about Bea was how she cared about her baby dolls. Bea use to walk and when she lost the strength in her legs to not walk on her own she would still try. Well we would give her a doll to hold. She treated that doll just like it was a real baby. I made Bea promise a few things before. One being that she would take care of my babies before they came to me. I know she is. Another fav is when Bea would put her nose up to mine and move it to give Eskimo kisses. That tiny tiny little face. :) Bea weighted about 85 pounds or so. She was just so little. Her little giggle and babble. She didn't have a lot of words that she could say but when she would have something to say she would go on forever and then just giggle and smile. So freakin adorable! I loved when she would grab my hands and put them on her face because they were warm. I want to go to her funeral because I can't wait to learn more about who Bea was before I met her. I would love to fit Bea into a name when I have a baby. Like a middle name. Bea just made a really big impact on me and I would love to honor her in some way. Cheesy that sounds. But sorry. I didn't realize that this job and meeting someone like Bea would do so much for me. Hmmm I can't think of what else to say about Bea right now or what else to share about other things. I do have things to write about but I'll save it for another post.

Be good cowboy

My Grandpa Woody passed away this last week and a picture like this always hung up in his kitchen. I really want to find one that looks like the one they had but so far no good. Gpa Woody was married to Gma Mary. Who I am actually named after. She was such a sweetheart and so was he. Today at his service they talked about how outspoken he was but he was so full of service. I want to do more service and be more charitable.

His service was really nice. They had a musical number that I want to try and find the song and really listen to it because the two girls didn't sing loud enough for me to hear. I think the song is called "love me." it was nice for people to share some stories about him and remember the little sweet things about him. It also brought back some little memories of Mary. Kobby got asked to be a pall bearer. My dad loved him doing that. He said he was great to do it and also represented out family. I'm happy that Kob got that opportunity to do it. I really wish Kob had the opportunity to meet my Grandpas. I know they would have just loved him! I know my Grandmas do. My Grandma Alger talks about him all the time to my dad. I know they both love him so so much. But so does my whole family. They tell me all the time. And I know it, I know they do. It's back again to luck but also love. Still perfectly happy.

luck

How did I ever get so lucky? Kob and I always get in little fights. (although they aren't really fights at all) about who is more lucky. Honestly it's me. I feel like I am on top of the world being with him. I know I write about him a lot but it's because I love him a lot and think about him a lot. My decisions are or decisions. We make them together. His opinion means everything to me! I want to be the best I can for him and everyday I strive to be for him. I want us to have the perfect life together and so far we do. We both are so incredibly happy and look forward to more amazing and incredible experiences and adventures together.

His younger brother David graduated high school yesterday and I got to be there for it and say in the middle of them all. Right between Kob and his mom. They are just wonderful people! That's to say the least though. You can see that Kob gets some of his big heart from his mom. She is such a thoughtful and caring person. I already feel like such a part of their family because of the way they have welcomed me and treat me. I can't believe how comfortable I am around them.

Especially with how little time I've known them. Although it feels like I've know Kob and his family forever. Kob and I talk about it all the time. I've always had such walls up when I've met people. Especially guys. But for some reason after I prayed for needing someone and then met him a short time later I couldn't believe how easy it was for me to let him get to know me. There weren't any walls for him to come through. I'm thankful everyday for him!

I found a few quotes one of them to me is something that I feel fits this.

"it's so amazing how someone comes into your life and you expect nothing out of it but suddenly they are standing right there infront of you and they are everything you need."

Every time I read this I think of Kob. I wasn't expecting my prayer to be answers do quickly but also to be answered with him. I didn't expect anything when I met him and now I still cant believe that he is everything I could ever need and want. When I prayed and thought about who this person boy or girl was going to be I never thought I'd be this lucky. He is so much more than I could have ever imagined.

Well that's it for now. But I'm so perfectly happy! So grateful for my boo and my booger! How'd I ever get so lucky.

Sweep.

this baby is so peacefully sleeping that i wish i looked this cute and peaceful when i sleep. so tonight more than once my amazing boo (kob) and i were talking about how our sleeping schedules are off. he works graveyard so when he is hitting the sheets i am usually out of them. then i nap and sleep during the day and sometimes when he is at work. i like to talk to him while he is at work when i'm suppose to be sleeping. we hope to be on the same schedule soon. kob is trying to get a day job. i think it would be great for him. especially because he would be working with people. i couldn't work by myself, so i give him props for doing so. he is truly amazing. not just because he works graveyards and doesn't work with people but just because of who he is. i love him and i love everything about him. his widdle giggle. his big brown eyes. they say so much to me. just looking at them makes me feel safe. by far one of my favorite things about him is his big beautiful heart! it says so much about him. when i first met him i could tell his heart wasn't a normal one. not that his is or isn't normal. well its his and its a beautiful one. i could say so much about his heart and him. he is also pretty dapper. more on kob later because heck i love writing about him. :D

so whats going on since the last time i updated. i'm trying to pick up more shifts at work and i'm also looking for a new job. i've applied for some nanny positions so we will see how that goes. i need to be making more money. (wow that makes me feel greedy) but i need to be saving more money. for medical bills, and mostly life.   but i know things will work out and be okay. kob always makes me feel that it will be. i know that it will be because of him. i've also decided to sell my 4runner for a smaller car. i've mainly been looking at jettas. i would get double the miles per gallon for gas and insurance will also be lower. i'm excited to have a new car and i think jettas are really cute. kob has been helping me out a lot with it and i'm so happy he is willing to help me. he is so good to me. he spoils me so much. he does! i'm so grateful for him. not because he spoils me but because of who he is and how he treats me.

well thats all i can really think of right now but i'm thinking that i will be back on here later tonight. who knows.

being caught up.

i know i need to be better on writing a post about once or twice a week. i would love to do it everyday but to be honest about a couple of things. first, it doesn't even cross my mind. second, i don't think i would have enough to say. third, i just wanted an odd number. :) well since i wrote to you last. i got to experience one of my really close friends having a baby. it was an incredible feeling to be there as that baby took her first cry and her first breath. that baby was just born. wow. some of me feels like it still isn't real. my friend gave her baby up. she has so much strength because i know that is something i would never have the courage to do. i look up to her in that. i'm happy for her. i see that she is happy in her decision too and that is really important for me. i didn't want her to regret her decision or suddenly change her mind. i know it shouldn't matter to me or not what she did but honestly i want her to be happy and content with it because i only want the best for her. she deserves it. i know she has had a hard life but making this choice will only expand her opportunities of what she will be able to do. (side note: i hope all of this is coming across the way i am meaning for it too.)

among other things... i am still so extremely happy. i can't imagine where i would be without Jake(Kob) in my life. He brings so much joy and incredibly awesome-ness and tons of other things into my life. Just thinking of his name or seeing something that reminds me of him puts a smile on my face. i am so happy and i am loving every minute of it. every second of it.

easter was this past weekend and we got to spend it with his family. i loved every minute of it. not a minute went by that i wasn't enjoying what was going on. i met his cousins, aunts, uncles, poppop(grandpa) and his grandmom. They are all such wonderful people and he has such a wonderful family. you can tell how much they all love each other. i knew it from moment i walked in the door. well i knew that there was a lot of love just from the way that jake is and the way that his mom and his family is. they are just so incredible and i feel so blessed to be apart of it. i can't wait to get to know them better.

hmmm... not sure what else to write so that is it for now because i know i could go on forever about jake and his wonderful family and all the love they have to give.

playing catch up.

so this picture isn't exactly the type of ketchup i was talking about but heck i like it so i wanted to put it. go ahead and judge. :) we algers got a new addition to our family back in november and honestly we couldn't be more happy and excited about it. his name is buddy james alger. he is now about 4 months old so yes some time has passed but man oh man is he adorable. he was born on the 21st of november at about 3:33pm and weighted just about 8 pounds and was 21 inches long. tons of dark hair.

yes he is the cutest baby alive. well besides mine. no offense to them i just know that mine are going to be freakin adorable! but baby buddy is so cute. he laughs and smiles all the time. he is just such a good baby. having a new addition to our family and having it be a baby i couldn't really be more excited. but it also gets me more excited for me that someday i will have some little bugs of my own. :)

school. well i haven't decided what or if i am going to go to school this fall. if i do i'm thinking i will be attending slcc. they can help me get done with my nursing sooner and easier. i've also thought a lot about being an ultra sound tech. you know look up the babies. :) i would love this because if you know anything about me i love babies. so i've really thought about going to do that. its also pretty quick to get done and i'm ready to be done with school and get moving on more into my career life. its going to be so so hard to leave courtyard when that time comes but as of now i am staying that and loving every minute it. i know i wine about going in at 6am but once i get there things are great. i love being in the service of people and i wish i could do more. i know i could do more but i really need to go out there and find it.

its not you. its me.

yes. i have been decent for some time. don't worry its nothing you did. its not you its me. i thought about starting a new blog. something that more people could read if i so desired. a lot has changed in my life starting in the new year. it wasn't some new year resolution or anything. its something of a life theme. okay so that sounds cheesy but something i've decided that i always want in my life. simplicity. with this really being applied in my life i've become a lot happier. well its one of the few reasons. simplicity just can't get all the credit for an amazing new year.

two days before the new year started i met an amazing man. his name is jake but goes by kob. yes yes that is him in that picture of there ---^ (yes that is an arrow pointing up) a little bit about him. first off he is incredible, respectful, honest, non-judgmental, humble, trustworthy, loving, big heart, handsome, funny and has an amazing spirit about himself. jake has so so many great qualities. these are just to name a few. well a little bit about him. his favorite color is blue. he has a awesome family that you can tell he loves and they love him. its totally unconditional. he has so more things than this. jake and i have such an awesome time every time we are together. we made a list when we were first dating and getting to know each other and we add to it frequently. we are going to do everything on that list and are so excited to do it. one of our pros is that we are great at communicating with each other. but yes we have a heck of a time with each other and date the heck out of each other. haha. we love it. i love the way he makes me feel. i thought i've felt like this before but honestly i've never been this happy and really in love before now. i thought that i had. but the way jake makes me feel i really can't describe. he makes me want to be better, he makes me so incredibly happy. he helps make me, me. i've had my wall up for sometime now but when i met him for some reason it didn't exists. i have had no fear going into him. i feel like he knows me for who i am. honestly i can say i don't know who has. i feel like we are both that way. neither of us have walls up and we can really show who we are and not care what the other one thinks. especially when we do our dance moves. haha. :D

i'm going to share more later but heck i'm not going to share everything because its my business and not yours. so this is it for now. i'll update you with more things later. peace.