A little one.

You will understand the picture of the doll after ya read. I want to write about a little once. Beatrice Sparks. She was a very dear friend of mine. She passed away Friday evening around 8. She was such a sweetheart but also such a little stinker. I loved it though. Even when she was stubborn. A few other things I love about Bea was how she cared about her baby dolls. Bea use to walk and when she lost the strength in her legs to not walk on her own she would still try. Well we would give her a doll to hold. She treated that doll just like it was a real baby. I made Bea promise a few things before. One being that she would take care of my babies before they came to me. I know she is. Another fav is when Bea would put her nose up to mine and move it to give Eskimo kisses. That tiny tiny little face. :) Bea weighted about 85 pounds or so. She was just so little. Her little giggle and babble. She didn't have a lot of words that she could say but when she would have something to say she would go on forever and then just giggle and smile. So freakin adorable! I loved when she would grab my hands and put them on her face because they were warm. I want to go to her funeral because I can't wait to learn more about who Bea was before I met her. I would love to fit Bea into a name when I have a baby. Like a middle name. Bea just made a really big impact on me and I would love to honor her in some way. Cheesy that sounds. But sorry. I didn't realize that this job and meeting someone like Bea would do so much for me. Hmmm I can't think of what else to say about Bea right now or what else to share about other things. I do have things to write about but I'll save it for another post.

Be good cowboy

My Grandpa Woody passed away this last week and a picture like this always hung up in his kitchen. I really want to find one that looks like the one they had but so far no good. Gpa Woody was married to Gma Mary. Who I am actually named after. She was such a sweetheart and so was he. Today at his service they talked about how outspoken he was but he was so full of service. I want to do more service and be more charitable.

His service was really nice. They had a musical number that I want to try and find the song and really listen to it because the two girls didn't sing loud enough for me to hear. I think the song is called "love me." it was nice for people to share some stories about him and remember the little sweet things about him. It also brought back some little memories of Mary. Kobby got asked to be a pall bearer. My dad loved him doing that. He said he was great to do it and also represented out family. I'm happy that Kob got that opportunity to do it. I really wish Kob had the opportunity to meet my Grandpas. I know they would have just loved him! I know my Grandmas do. My Grandma Alger talks about him all the time to my dad. I know they both love him so so much. But so does my whole family. They tell me all the time. And I know it, I know they do. It's back again to luck but also love. Still perfectly happy.

luck

How did I ever get so lucky? Kob and I always get in little fights. (although they aren't really fights at all) about who is more lucky. Honestly it's me. I feel like I am on top of the world being with him. I know I write about him a lot but it's because I love him a lot and think about him a lot. My decisions are or decisions. We make them together. His opinion means everything to me! I want to be the best I can for him and everyday I strive to be for him. I want us to have the perfect life together and so far we do. We both are so incredibly happy and look forward to more amazing and incredible experiences and adventures together.

His younger brother David graduated high school yesterday and I got to be there for it and say in the middle of them all. Right between Kob and his mom. They are just wonderful people! That's to say the least though. You can see that Kob gets some of his big heart from his mom. She is such a thoughtful and caring person. I already feel like such a part of their family because of the way they have welcomed me and treat me. I can't believe how comfortable I am around them.

Especially with how little time I've known them. Although it feels like I've know Kob and his family forever. Kob and I talk about it all the time. I've always had such walls up when I've met people. Especially guys. But for some reason after I prayed for needing someone and then met him a short time later I couldn't believe how easy it was for me to let him get to know me. There weren't any walls for him to come through. I'm thankful everyday for him!

I found a few quotes one of them to me is something that I feel fits this.

"it's so amazing how someone comes into your life and you expect nothing out of it but suddenly they are standing right there infront of you and they are everything you need."

Every time I read this I think of Kob. I wasn't expecting my prayer to be answers do quickly but also to be answered with him. I didn't expect anything when I met him and now I still cant believe that he is everything I could ever need and want. When I prayed and thought about who this person boy or girl was going to be I never thought I'd be this lucky. He is so much more than I could have ever imagined.

Well that's it for now. But I'm so perfectly happy! So grateful for my boo and my booger! How'd I ever get so lucky.

Sweep.

this baby is so peacefully sleeping that i wish i looked this cute and peaceful when i sleep. so tonight more than once my amazing boo (kob) and i were talking about how our sleeping schedules are off. he works graveyard so when he is hitting the sheets i am usually out of them. then i nap and sleep during the day and sometimes when he is at work. i like to talk to him while he is at work when i'm suppose to be sleeping. we hope to be on the same schedule soon. kob is trying to get a day job. i think it would be great for him. especially because he would be working with people. i couldn't work by myself, so i give him props for doing so. he is truly amazing. not just because he works graveyards and doesn't work with people but just because of who he is. i love him and i love everything about him. his widdle giggle. his big brown eyes. they say so much to me. just looking at them makes me feel safe. by far one of my favorite things about him is his big beautiful heart! it says so much about him. when i first met him i could tell his heart wasn't a normal one. not that his is or isn't normal. well its his and its a beautiful one. i could say so much about his heart and him. he is also pretty dapper. more on kob later because heck i love writing about him. :D

so whats going on since the last time i updated. i'm trying to pick up more shifts at work and i'm also looking for a new job. i've applied for some nanny positions so we will see how that goes. i need to be making more money. (wow that makes me feel greedy) but i need to be saving more money. for medical bills, and mostly life.   but i know things will work out and be okay. kob always makes me feel that it will be. i know that it will be because of him. i've also decided to sell my 4runner for a smaller car. i've mainly been looking at jettas. i would get double the miles per gallon for gas and insurance will also be lower. i'm excited to have a new car and i think jettas are really cute. kob has been helping me out a lot with it and i'm so happy he is willing to help me. he is so good to me. he spoils me so much. he does! i'm so grateful for him. not because he spoils me but because of who he is and how he treats me.

well thats all i can really think of right now but i'm thinking that i will be back on here later tonight. who knows.