How Come?

how come? its a never really a good thing when someone asks 'how come?' but its true, how come? How come people you care and love about make a really dumb choice. from my point of view. but from his its what his heart and head are saying. is it bad that i hope it goes the opposite way that he desires it to go. its just way to hard to watch him go through something like he has before. how come he has to do it? so he can learn something? i want him to be so happy and i want the best for him. i really do. despite of how things come across. i care. i really do care. i love you man and you are in my prayers. take care.

I disappeared...

So technically I didn't disappear, technically I forgot my e:mail address for my blog so I couldn't log in. I don't know why i have a different e:mail address for this blog than i do for my regular e:mail. not sure what i was thinking at the time. well i probably wasn't. so lets play catch up. my sister told me i had to update my blog because it hasn't been updated since february.

School: We are almost done with this Semester of school. I got to finally take my Ballet Tech class. I'm not sure if I can take number 2 next semester because I need to get more of my nursing classes under way so that i can be done with my P.A. a lot sooner. i love ballet and i think for the most part it keeps me sane. a little bit more sane okay. i registered for next semester and i'm in human sexuality, body images, medical terminology, intro to anatomy and physiology. yikes right?

Work: Last time I caught you up about work I was a Hostess at Courtyard well that changed a long time ago. I'm now a CNA. I love it, especially where I am. I work in the Alzheimers Unit and all I have to say is those people are so easy to love and care for. Its an amazing thing! I'm also exploring options at the hospital lately. I've filled out some applications for the emergency room and got some interviews. i also recently got one for the cardiac wing. it will just be stressful because its a 6pm-6am. that and being a full-time student. a lot to thinking about but right now I'm very happy with being at courtyard especially working the residents i do and then some of my co-workers.

Church: well i did a brave thing last week. i finally moved back to provo. i'm not in my cedar hills ward anymore. I've been up there for just about 2 years. which i can't believe but wow i'm back. i'm very unsure how i feel about it so we will see. its not that i don't mind being back in provo but not sure how i like being back in this ward... nothing against those people. to be honest with you i thought the cedar hills ward would be my last ward.

i know i will get asked this question so why not answer it. boys... they are around me and i'm enjoying the ones that are more dominant in my life. oh guess what? i'm going to be an aunt soon! baby peanut is just around the corner and i am so excited! my brother buddy jokes that we won't ever get to see the baby i know where they live i can just show up. ha ha. i really won't do that because they live in west jordan but still i'm going to see my nephew. i joined a gym and i love going! my old good friend Laura and me go at least twice a week and its a great time.

overall. life is good. i can't complain to much. i shouldn't really be able to complain. i'm pretty healthy (for once in my life) i have a great job and i'm furthering my education which is very important. i'm starting to get back into somethings that i've wanted to have back into my life. probably my only real complaint right now is that jay and me aren't in the same state. i miss that man! a lot!

this is all for me for tonight. peaces and much love.

ten.

i hope you aren't getting bored with what i am doing. day ten is a picture of the person who i do the most ridiculous things with. thats a toughie but i don't really do ridiculous things.

jeff and i did some pretty crazy stuff but i don't want you to get sick of him so...

jay and me. he is my bestie!!! we have been through a lot together. :) we have done some pretty crazy stuff. vegas trips, cali trips. tying a balloon to my hair so i wouldn't get lost at a dance. yep yep, we have done some awesome stuff.

day nine.

picture of someone who has gotten me through the most.

to me this is a hard question to answer. is it through the most recently? then it would be adds or adam. but if you are talking for a while and who is my good number one, i don't know how to really do this but then there is jeff. amazing one. then you have jay who has been my rock through all of these boys below. you got alex, who has also been there for me. finally chris. he was probably there for me the most but hasn't been there recently. we've kind of gone our seperate ways a couple of months after his mission. thats off track but yeah these guys have each been there for me all in a different way. love 'em.

day 6, 7 and 8.

day six: picture of a person you would want to trade places for a day.

i can't think of someone i would like to trade places with for a day. but i would maybe like to be a bug for a day so i could hear certain things. well maybe not a bug but be like a dot on president monsons tie or something.

day seven: picture of most treasured item.

Its not the picture that I treasure well sort of but its more of the people in the picture that I treasure and this is us being us. i love it.

day eight: picture that makes me laugh.

This picture for sure makes me laugh! We are picking up Austin from bootcamp and yep one of my favorite features on a guy... yep his butt! ha ha. love this picture!!! side note for future days: jeff will probably be in a lot of pictures. don't say i didn't warn you.

day 5.

day 5: a picture of your favorite memory. i love this picture and there are so many great memories behind it. not just the picture but that guy. yep jeff! he surprised me one day with horseback riding. awesome. this also happened to be the day of the first time we told each other that we loved each other!!! :D Hello! totally a awesome and worth-wild memory! hee hee. i could go on pretty much forever about this but i will spare you. hee hee.

the days.

So I was told I should do this 30 days of pictures. Well... I am behind by four days if you didn't know. So, I have some catching up to do. Also I have been missing here but totally in action else where.

Day 01 - A picture of yourself with fifteen facts.

1. I have WAY to many Shoes! But hey I have to have a guilty pleasure. 2. Favorite color is Red. 3. I love to laugh. 4. I really don't have as much hair as people think. Extensions people. My hair is really short. 5. Love my 4Runner. 6. I would love to be a professional ballerina but with my knee injury it won't ever happen. 7. i don't care what people say i am getting into the nursing school i want. 8. i'm not a mind reader. 9. my family is pretty awesome. 10. i have only had one job where i haven't had a 'dress code'. 11. first word was chocolate. 12. my sister is da bomb. 13. i have so many notebooks that i don't know what to do with them. 14. my mind is always thinking. 15. i love me. hee hee. ***Side Note: I really didn't know what to share.***

Day 02 - A picture of you and the person you have been close with for awhile.

This is my best friend Jeff. i love him to death. we use to date and now we are just besties. someday things will be even better for us and i sincerly can't wait for it.

Day 03 - A picture of the cast from your favorite show.

So this isn't the cast from my favorite show but he is one of my favorite actors. He is so talented well and i will be honest here he is GORGOUS!!! H yeah!

Day 04 - A picture of your night.

So this isn't really a picture of my night, but it has been a picture of one of my nights when Adam and I stayed up all night so we could go to the BYU lost and found sale. Awesome! We are going again next year. Already excited. But this was a fun night. Adam gets so funny when it gets past lets say 10pm. Ha ha. I love it.